OK here we go:

So I'm trying to figure out the minds of my male friends. They keep sending me funny signals and I don't know what to make of them. Maybe y'all can help me, Seeing as how this is my online diary and I feel no shame about letting everyone know my life I will write blatantly. I mean I want my life to be an open book, I think that its the people who are super quiet and hide things that are the ones who turn into wako's.

I know that there is an attraction between my one friend and I! I know that we like each other however he isn't making a move and thus neither am I. I am a strong believer in old fashioned chivalry! In my head all chivalry is NOT dead. So I refuse to act desperate and pathetic, which I AM NOT, and be the one to make the first move. This certain someone and I hang out a lot together with his best friend and a really good friend of mine. We are all excellent friends and love hanging out together however all four of us know that that He and I like each other. Every time we get together the other two try and hook us up. I am all for it I want to date him but I refuse to move until he does. So let me tell you what happened last night so I'm at his house and we are all talking and I told them this story about "how I got some advice about not worrying if certain people believe me or not that the only person who has to believe in me is my future husband." Well this special someones best friend says that the guy who gave me that advice is gay. I miss understood and thought he said that my husband was gay. Well my special someone got very vocal and was like "No! He is not gay! I bind those words..." He was so vocal that it was very shocking. But lets leave that, So after I got home I had told them I would call so I called them to talk to them. We were on and off the phone for like what an hour and a half. They told me how much they were gonna miss me when I left and then here comes the really weird confusing part:

They asked me a Q. The Q was: "If ----- (the special someone) was getting married would I stand up and object?" So I said "No, I mean if ---- chose that path for his life why would I want to break up his happiness and ruin his life"
So then they told me that if I was getting married to some random dude from Spain then they would stand up and object. They would stop my wedding from happening."
SO I said "Why would you two ruin my wedding day!?!?!? That is so mean"
SO they said: "No, That is not who God has for me and they don't want me marrying who I'm not supposed to" So I asked them "Who is it God has said or me to marry?"
And they said "Who do I think God has said for me to marry"
To Which I replied, "I don't know"
To Which they replied "Do you think you've met him yet?"
I said "I don't know"

This conversation is pretty much the standard norm for how things go when they are sending their funny signals. I mean they are on speaker phone what am I supposed to say. Even if they were not on speaker I have not clue what to say? Am I supposed to say "Yes, I've met him, I want to marry ---- and have lots of babies and tons of fun!!!" I mean honestly what do they want from me. But I will write more about my crazy life later. I've got to go clean my room and throw out a lot of work from last semester that I don't need for this coming semester!

Love