Dear.......
I recently watched this movie (for the 5th or 6th time) and it seriously spoke to me. This movie was about four friends who hold a serious bond. I envied the bond in which they shared, I've never had friends like that, I've never had a bond like that. I've always wanted and needed friends like that but.... I mean the Bible says not 2B envious of others but is it that bad (wrong even) to not really be envious but rather to long for what they have without actually wanting it, to the point of stealing, murder etc. Well besides the bond/friendship that they portrayed in this movie, I discovered a lot about myself.
From the character of Lena, I discovered how much I actually hide the most special, amazing , beautiful parts of myself away, instead of showing them off. Through her I realized that I'm even more of a hopeless romantic than I thought. I found that I block ppl out from the deepest parts of who I am, even though I want to let certain ones in, but I'm far to afraid of the hurt and pain that may come as a result of opening up my heart.
From the character of Bridgett I saw the outward me, always energetic, always smiling, always wanting fun. But with Bridgett I also found that I act without thinking things through sometimes and then feel deep pain/embarrassment when it backfires. This character showed me that I present a lot of my fun side because I'm terrified to need anyone. I truly am scared of needing to rely on someone. It scares me to think of what it would be like to have someone who I could need and who needed me back in such a way as to want to protect me while not needing me to be their protector in return. If that makes any sense at all!!! I realized that I have a tendency to believe that things /events are being used by me to try and fill the void that I have deep within my soul. I try and make myself feel complete , cause I know I don't dare rely on another person to heal my internal wounds. From this character I took away a respect for the power of my inner strength.
From Tibby I learned to be unique. I know I am unique and that there is no one like me but my uniqueness is an attitude, a characteristic, Tibby's is an outward expression of her individuality. I mean this character has blue streaks in her hair. I learned through Tibby that maybe by linking all the excellent little things in my life together everything that worries me will turn out fine. I just have to get through all of the nonsense and power on and eventually I will find the happiness and completion I am longing for.
I truly identified with the character of Carmen. Well for starters she is not a size four! She like me is like a size 12/14. She is longing for acceptance into a world that she needs. I am like that! I allow people to walk all over me without an outward fight. I like her am being shredded to pieces inside but don't let it show to anyone so that while I'm actually crumbling on the inside, I like her am smiling and singing on the outside. As a trained psychologist I can see I have problems emotionally but Its hard to fix them or even work through them by myself. However as I've said I think i am truly unable to open up to anyone else. Carmen taught me to be happy about who I am even when I'm not excepted by others. Also I learned to push till the ones I need acceptance from either except me or I move on.
From all of these characters I learned that although things don't always happen the way we plan they will turn out OK!............... You know I know that it will be OK in the back of my head but sometimes my heart doesn't get the message and it aches.
I recently watched this movie (for the 5th or 6th time) and it seriously spoke to me. This movie was about four friends who hold a serious bond. I envied the bond in which they shared, I've never had friends like that, I've never had a bond like that. I've always wanted and needed friends like that but.... I mean the Bible says not 2B envious of others but is it that bad (wrong even) to not really be envious but rather to long for what they have without actually wanting it, to the point of stealing, murder etc. Well besides the bond/friendship that they portrayed in this movie, I discovered a lot about myself.
From the character of Lena, I discovered how much I actually hide the most special, amazing , beautiful parts of myself away, instead of showing them off. Through her I realized that I'm even more of a hopeless romantic than I thought. I found that I block ppl out from the deepest parts of who I am, even though I want to let certain ones in, but I'm far to afraid of the hurt and pain that may come as a result of opening up my heart.
From the character of Bridgett I saw the outward me, always energetic, always smiling, always wanting fun. But with Bridgett I also found that I act without thinking things through sometimes and then feel deep pain/embarrassment when it backfires. This character showed me that I present a lot of my fun side because I'm terrified to need anyone. I truly am scared of needing to rely on someone. It scares me to think of what it would be like to have someone who I could need and who needed me back in such a way as to want to protect me while not needing me to be their protector in return. If that makes any sense at all!!! I realized that I have a tendency to believe that things /events are being used by me to try and fill the void that I have deep within my soul. I try and make myself feel complete , cause I know I don't dare rely on another person to heal my internal wounds. From this character I took away a respect for the power of my inner strength.
From Tibby I learned to be unique. I know I am unique and that there is no one like me but my uniqueness is an attitude, a characteristic, Tibby's is an outward expression of her individuality. I mean this character has blue streaks in her hair. I learned through Tibby that maybe by linking all the excellent little things in my life together everything that worries me will turn out fine. I just have to get through all of the nonsense and power on and eventually I will find the happiness and completion I am longing for.
I truly identified with the character of Carmen. Well for starters she is not a size four! She like me is like a size 12/14. She is longing for acceptance into a world that she needs. I am like that! I allow people to walk all over me without an outward fight. I like her am being shredded to pieces inside but don't let it show to anyone so that while I'm actually crumbling on the inside, I like her am smiling and singing on the outside. As a trained psychologist I can see I have problems emotionally but Its hard to fix them or even work through them by myself. However as I've said I think i am truly unable to open up to anyone else. Carmen taught me to be happy about who I am even when I'm not excepted by others. Also I learned to push till the ones I need acceptance from either except me or I move on.
From all of these characters I learned that although things don't always happen the way we plan they will turn out OK!............... You know I know that it will be OK in the back of my head but sometimes my heart doesn't get the message and it aches.
