OK so I'm better now.... I think. I mean I got over the Cathy thing and now we are talking just not like we used to but that's OK. However now I am experiencing a whole nother type of upset. I had just gotten over everything and was enjoying life when my parents decided to take in two little kids. Now we have two little kids living with us and it is just two much work for me. I mean now I have to wake up early, get them up, fix breakfast, fix lunch, pick the one who goes to school up from school etc. So let me start from the beginning and explain how BAD this is. (I hate to complain cause the children needed help however I think this is very unfair)

So one of the guys who goes to our church has two boys 8 & 4. Well the two boys have two diff moms who are from another country and they are both unfit mothers. Well the guy moved to South Africa and brought the kids over to stay with him and his new girlfriend. Well he then married his new girlfriend and she has been mistreating his kids. They have a nanny who would send the 8 year old to school with two plane slices of bread for lunch and no breakfast. They would drop him off super early and not pick him up from school till it was dark. The 4yo was stuck in their town house all day, everyday. They were acting out in school and everything. They guy has a bit of a drinking problem and the stepmother is emotionally abusive to the kids. Well the dad beat the 4yo till he had marks on his body really bad. This was not the first time he had beat the kids. So this time my parents told him either they report him to the authorities and have the kids removed or they give him 6 months to go to counselling and get his act together etc etc. and the kids can stay with us.

OK now it was fine. I mean I really didn't want them but i thought OK we need to help them out. well hello our lives are not suited to children. My parents are all day. My dad from 6:30am and my mom from 8am till 5&4pm. So a lot of the burden falls on me. I have to make breakfast, lunches etc. The 4yo goes to our farm with my dad everyday but its still a lot of work. Then I have to come home and look after them and then cook dinner cause neither of my parents are home to do it. This is just not good. I mean I want to be a good person and do the right thing in helping these kids out. However I mean, this is all just a lot to take. I've gotten really used to only having to care for myself. I mean I do a lot of work around the house but I never had to make sure that I cooked cause if I didn't someone wouldn't eat. I mean we are all grown in this house. I'm the youngest and I'm 20! Hello!!!!!! I don't want to have the responsibility of another life who is completely dependent on me right now. If I wanted to have kids to be responsible of then I would have gone out and had sex and gotten prego!! But NO I didn't so why now am I forced to pay for my parents stupid choices and them being pastors. I don't want our house to be like 7th heaven where they keep taking in other ppls kids. It would be different if the kids were like 13-17!!! Then they can care for themselves but its not so I just have to live with it.

OK so now I'm gonna just have to pray to God to help me deal with all of this. OK I'll write again later, right now I need to go do some work.