Ok so life is back in action! I went on two amazing vacations recently and had a blast. The second one was a crusie so I'm gonna upload pics of that for the world to see. Well lets chat. My life is very rarely dull let me tell you that. I am trying very hard to keep my normality while living with my mother!!! That in itself is a very hard thing to do. If you have ever met my mother you will understand. Recently at times I have been feeling extreemly sad! I dont know what it is. At first I thought lonleyness then I thought it was my period however neither of these explanations are correct. I dont know what it is.

But I woke up on Valentines morning with a new mood and am very happy to not be sad anymore. I kept getting these messages like "Wear black and boycott valentines" and "For all you lonley hearts come to a party and lets all get drunk" They drove me so mad that I finnaly decided to be HAPPY!!! SO I baked all my friends cookies and put them in little baggies with notes attatched to them that said: On today the world wide day of love, I am blessed to have lots of people to love. Not lovers but friends. So accept this very unconventional valentine from one friend to another. Love Emmy" I thought it was a good idea until one of my friends told me that i needed to get a boyfriend to share all my love with cause I have too much love to share with them and they dont deserve all the love I lavish on them. That seriously depressed me! Dude all her little speech did was make me feel lonley that I dont have a boyfriend.
However I have a new resolve to that. I am not gonna be like all thoes little nuts who wear no clothes and put themselves out there for guys. I'm gonna be myself, take pride in my apperance and wait till the right guy finds me!